Disini lahirnya sebuah cinta bagi aku. I love my family. Especially my parents, mak dengan abah yang tercinta. and wont forget about my two sisters, gg and hani with my two big cats hihi :-) We're living at a terrace house but I'm happy living in this house. Since I was childhood I was still staying at shah alam. I feel comfortable. Previously I was a lazy kid. Malas buat kerja , malas dalam segala kemalasan. When my mom asked me to help her , tidy up our house. I'll gives a lot of excuses. When my dad asked me to study , I'll pretend to study. Unfortunately i was texting my friends behind their back. I shouldnt do this to them. It's a big mistakes. I've got lots of problems nowadays. Terasa macam disingkirkan. I need to go home. I miss all of you. I want to tells my parents how heavy my problems i'm carrying now. I need them to makes me stand up again. But if I tells this will makes them more burden to carry on. They'll worried and sad because of me. Biarlah aku yang tanggung beban aku sendiri pula. Barulah sekarang aku rasa perasaan macam ni. My mom used to advice me , she said '' Kau dah besar nanti , kau rasalah beban macam mana mak rasa sekarang''. Seriously terasa sedih and down sangat. First thing, I need to spend a lot of money every week for staying here. Maybe now its a bit shy to ask them for the money. And plus abah wanted to quit the job at his company , my mom will have to bear us all alone. I was not supposed to studying here. Duit exam tak bayar lagi , Duit hostel pun tak bayar lagi. Poor my mom and my dad. I still remembered my how my dad tells me that he wanted to quit. I know he was crying. He needs his daughter to supported him too. He's got a lot of problems to solve. Hutang bank lagi , and kinds of sorta. I already told mom that I wanted to takes PT to recovered her burden , but what she said ''mak boleh tanggung kau lagi , kau jangan nak susahkan diri kau bayar bila besar nanti''. Tak sampai hati bila dengar macam ni. I knew my parents never tells my two sister about their problems and loans they used to borrow from the banks. I knew my sisters wont understand the situation. I'm very oath pressure. Another two weeks I've got my examination to go through. I can't focus. I do not appreciate the opportunities I have once. Previously I've the time to learn , but I'll pull it away. I'll be a good person if I know how to listen , but what I have to believe on my fate. I need to focus and struggle up for the good result so that i can help my parents , so they can smile again.
Amin :-)